My Everest…

I’m back on track friends I have good days and bad just like everyone yes I had a few spells of brain farts etc but they ebb and flow just like a river.  I have been focusing on trying to assist some people in my life going through some hard times. 

Both are  just at the beginning of their journey with pain and have been struggling.  I have been giving them lots of talks, reassurance that everything will be clarified with time but no one knows how long that journey will be.  It could just be a short tryst with pain (for their sakes I hope so) or they could be in wedded bliss until death due us part pain like me that wont leave until your gone.   I feel like sometimes when they talk i just want to say hey ….here read this it’s my journal of life with pain read it.   What you are going through is just the very beginning. I have been through all of it inside and out, backwards and forwards, like dough being squished through a pasta machine.  I don’t know why I don’t do it.  I just listen. One has back issues, another can’t walk, another has something else but the one thing they have in common is that they all have something visible that others can see wrong with them.   Something I secretly envy them for.  But it’s catch 22 situation, they don’t want it due to all the attention it draws.  The questions!!   Are you ok?   The suggestions of you should try this and this and X, Y, Z. I walked with one of them one day and as frustrating as it was for her it was nice to see that people care. But for me who has a bucket load of drugs on board at all times in my system it was quite comical to see.  No one asked me if I was ok….because again insert eyeroll I am perfectly fine!

My takeaway from the conversations that I did have with them was that it seemed that their partner/spouses don’t understand what they are going through. I do notice that this often becomes the problem the longer it goes on.  To give an example here you have a puzzle and it all looks good in the box until opened and someone falls and all the pieces get scattered all over the place.  Now you have to find all those pieces and the only way you will know if you found all the pieces is to put the puzzle together.  Counting them is cheating. Some will gather them up and put them together quickly, some won’t.   The longer you are missing pieces the longer your journey.   My point here is that it doesn’t matter how long it took to put the pieces together it’s that you have to get through it all together. You can’t just leave when things are bad and the pieces are scattered on the floor.  Or show up when the puzzle is done.  Life is messy and you need to be with them through the messy too.  Trust me, the person you are going through it with wishes a quick end to their pain as well.   What is your puzzle of?   Can you guess what mine is ?? 

My Everest of course !  It’s got everyone in it because everyone is going through it with me…..as well lines, pulleys, spikes, carabiners, water packs, coffee!!!  Should I ask for some sherpas?