My Everest…

Shopping is a pain in the neck! For me it literally can be. I went for 2 hours and I managed to bring back a few things but sometimes I wonder why I even bother.  I would rather people watch at a cafe or have a coffee with a friend. But you need clothes else you will be walking around naked and we all know this is something we really don’t want to do.  Who would think that moving clothes from one side of a rack to the other would cause a flare up?  Indeed it does.  I feel like the kid in kindergarten sitting on the floor going …oh, oh, oh pick me! Even though it’s not a constant movement and you are not looking down all the time.  The combination of time + looking down + pushing the buggy + moving the clothes back and forth= flare up of my left shoulder, left arm down to the elbow, and neck left side.  To the point that I couldn’t really move my left arm I kind of just left it floppy at my side for the rest of the afternoon/evening.  During the evening my hubby who I told I was in pain heard me taking deep breaths on the couch. He was like if you are in so much pain take something !!!  I always try to resist as long as I can. Sucker for pain that I must be.  But we were going to bed soon so I took a bit more meds at bedtime to help me sleep.  I had a horrible sleep but nevertheless I was up to do my morning routine.

Then off to physio to confess my digressions to him like a priest.  He tells me that if I was in the mall perhaps I could have at least sat down or something to take a break.  I said let’s be honest….would I really have done that? Or would I just pushed on to get home?  Home is my option always the place where I can get the best rest. He knows me by now!  But it doesn’t stop him from planting the seed to rest and telling me it’s ok to take a break if I need it.  He once again does some loosening up with some hands on therapy and gets the tape out and we are like brand new….right? Why don’t I just listen and sit down and rest for a bit to be honest I’m just not that kind of person.  I’m the kind of person that if I have stuff to do in my day I go and get them done and then I rest.  I can’t just chill out when I have things left to do. It drives me crazy.  I have tried to sit and relax only to feel guilt because others around me are doing stuff and I am not.   Or I will attempt to sit for a bit only to look around and see stuff that needs doing and get up and do it.  Only then can I sit and relax.  Yes I have ants in my pants….and yes I pay for it all the time.