My Everest…

Sabotage!!! That is what I woke up to this morning, my body and mind trying to sabotage my morning walk.  I had pain in my groin area and inner thigh enough to make me walk funny and think about not going for my walk.   So what to do?  Stay home and sit on my butt and relax and see what happens?  Or try and go for a walk and see what happens if the pain continues then we will come home and deal with it?  Well I went for a walk and the first 5 mins were horrible and I was whatever and then it slowly got better and as I was thinking maybe just do a shorter walk today just in case, low and behold the liar liar pants on fire (flare bear) had it in the tank do do the whole freaking 5km walk.  This is what i’m talking about. Sometimes getting up in the morning can be hard and you just want to stay in bed because it hurts.  Yes we are all supposed to listen to our bodies.  Don’t get me wrong I was exhausted from nothing the day before and slept in. I’m ok with the occasional lie in.  But I guess my point is for a person like me where the flare bear loves to play games. 

Listening to it and taking a short pause to assess and ask did I do anything yesterday that could have aggravated this area?   Yes?  Ok then be aware of it and take measures to make it better.   No?   Then test and see what is going on.  It may go away like it did today and you were happy that you got out for the walk.  However, It may not go away.  If not then come back from the walk all angry, because I will be angry and chalk up another point on the board for the bear.  My pain is real, it cannot be ignored, this is a fact.  It does wear on me especially when I appear to be “broken” a lot of the time.  At physio this week we tried to get a shoulder to move that hasn’t moved in years.  He picked up my arm and moved it. I said ow that hurts!   His comment “I need to test and assess before I address.”  I rolled my eyes. That’s his job he knows the parts of me that don’t want to move.  But if we flare up, we flare up, and we chase the flare bear wherever he goes because he’s everywhere.  It’s an adventure everyday and who doesn’t want to have adventures all the time?