While in hospital I had some time to contemplate what this all was that was happening to me. As you are most certainly not sleeping. Hospitals are good for one thing: getting care and meds. The food that they serve you even the homeless people would not eat. One day I was feeling quite nauseous. I have no idea what they gave us that day and my roommate said don’t lift the lid !! As quickly as it was served it was taken away even the smell was ewwww!!!! He couldn’t eat it !! Why do you serve stuff like that???
Sorry I digress…….so I sat in bed and thought about everything that was happening to me and the only thing I could come up with was my flare bear! That he either was so totally pissed off with me or taken aback with everything that my body has gone through these past few weeks that he finally got so angry with it all that he pressed the shutdown button and said there you have it !! F U !! You didn’t listen to me when i asked you nicely. You didn’t listen when I made you do nothing for a day well then now I’m just going to SHUT you down in the only way I know how so that you will listen to me for once. Well flare bear if this was you and I think it was, good on you, you won that game! But really putting me in the hospital?? Did you need to be such a drama llama?I feel like you are the body that cries wolf. One day you will really want help and I won’t listen to you and then what??? Then we’re going to be in bigger shit then we just were.
I told the Dr. that I am prone to flare up due to the central sensitization and asked if this is what it could be but he said he didn’t know. Every test they ran came back normal, what an oxymoron considering the person he was speaking about! Day 2 the blood pressure was fine and then low, up and down like a yo-yo. Still dizzy as well walking with my fancy new mode of transport the walker got me places but not far enough to consider getting out of there. A few more tests and scans and still nothing new except for everything is fine. So I once again had a chat with the dr about perhaps this being a flare up. I told him that I don’t want him to jump to that decision but keep it as a possibility. Funny how when we are being treated for something in emerg they jump to the chronic pain and the central sensitization wagon quite quickly and wash their hands of you as fast as they can. But in this case he didn’t, he listened as I told him that I didn’t want him to jump there but I wanted him to know that this is a possibility. He took it under advisement and left. Day 3 Blood pressure is normal, walking is a bit better..still dizzy. Here comes the Dr. He meets up with me in the hallway as I am semi-walking and tells me that he spent part of his night thinking about me ….. How sweet?? So he thinks that part of what is causing my dizziness is my meds. Totally possible as they have me on a very nice cocktail of pretty much everything. He is going to talk to physio and strongly suggest they discharge me even if i’m dizzy as i’m much better all around.
So I got my get out of jail free card !!! Whoo Hoo !! Just in time for the end of the long weekend and hubby to go back to work !
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