My Everest…

I have been asked by a few people who know what I am going through how I manage to stay upbeat and positive with all this stuff going on?  I wake up every day and see what trouble I can cause, because if you are not causing trouble then you are not having fun.  When I was working I always set out to make at least one person laugh during the day. The mindset behind that being, is if you are not having fun at work and laughing then you are going to have a very long day. So if I am laughing and making light of things then it makes all my burdens a little lighter.  Even my physio comments on it sometimes when I ask him why we are doing something.  He answers “because you are laughing”.  Translation in his brain…..she is asking to be tortured, give her more difficult exercises. Mwhahahaha! The key to get through this knowing all the things that are looming and happening is a healthy dose of humor, teasing and sarcasm, oh my do I LOVE my sarcasm.  As well as knowing that I am certifiably weird helps with everything! The answer is all the people I interact with. I feed off of their positivity and their humor and their laughter (think monsters inc.) they know that I will give as good as I get and we make it through. So thank you for making me laugh because if not for you it would be harder on me! 

For just over a month we have been without a second car.  In our minds the second car was supposed to last another 3 years. Usually once we are done paying off one car we get another but for some reason this one just didn’t have the will to hang on and our mechanic told us that it was not worth putting in thousands of dollars into fixing it when there was no guarantee that it would run so off to car heaven it went.  Now what?  We can’t do 2 car payments, so we decided that we would share the car sounds like a great idea!  I can see the morning sunrise at 5:45am and bond with hubby, do what I need to do during the day and pick him up from work when he’s done.  Sounds like a great plan!  When you normally wake up at around 7:30 or 8:00 am, you find out really fast what a huge amount of extra time that is for someone like me.  When you can’t do a lot to begin with, you fill it with a bit of baking, tv, and then your appointments, and after that because you have the car, maybe the grocery store even though it’s not your scheduled day to do it but you muster thru because you have the car.  You won’t do it in the evening because you are always tired.  So you push through it, forget about resting entirely, skip lunch, forget to bring or buy water and look at the time and you need to get hubby.  It’s ok hubby always has a water bottle.  Hydrate at his work. It’s ok, it’s only a 30 minute drive to get there!  Then you can get a tiny rest because he’s driving.  When you finally get home help with dinner and then we can rest.  Next day if you have an appointment you do the same!  Usually it’s like this Tuesday and Wednesday then we re-charge for it the rest of the week.   In the meantime there’s the house to tidy etc.   Can someone please ask how this is working out for me?  NOT in any way shape or form!  I know I am supposed to be PACING myself, however that is clearly not happening I am just running myself ragged.  I told hubby we need a solution to the second car asking our wonderful neighbours or my mom or family won’t work because there are times I really don’t know when I feel like going out so I don’t want to borrow a car and feel obligated to use it.