My entire life has changed. Everything I was doing before, going from a highly active person skiing, skating, swimming, dancing, just everything you can imagine…….my first love of volunteering and being a scouting leader being outside with the kids teaching them survival skills and here I am struggling to just do the basics myself.
There are still flare ups and there still will be flare ups. I still try to do things but I know my limits a lot more now but whether I push them, all depends on if the pain is worth it. Some may read this and say nothing is worth being in pain. I would counter that, there are some things that are worth putting yourself into pain but only you know what they are and you can only put a value on that.
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Is it worth going to meeting to supervise the scouts just to get out of the house and stay connected with something you love even if you need a bit of time the next day to recover – yes!
Is it worth going to a wedding (taped in PT tape) being ready to call it a night but your friends are still dancing and they just started playing ABBA and you end up staying the rest of the night. For that one moment in time you push thru all the pain and just want to not let the chronic pain and central sensitization rule you. Knowing later on you will pay for that and it took you almost 2 weeks to recover—yes!
Is it worth going taped up to your daughters wedding and reliving the same process as above? However this time you have been going from God knows what time in the AM until what time and night? — I only have one Daughter so the answer is unequivocally yes!
Will I do it again for my sons wedding? 100%
Will I do it for some other event or person — Yes!!
Why? Because I am human and I do not want to be an old granny sitting on her porch twiddling her thumbs. As long as my body still has functioning parts I will pick and choose which pain flares I want to put it thru. Most times they are predictable. Sometimes they are not and that is where I always need to tread lightly but sometimes I just don’t care and a go in with both feet because it gets tiring being cautious all the time. We have lives to live I don’t know about you but I have sat on the sidelines and that looks pretty boring to me.
Why? Because of my family and everything I have put them though they have been my rock solid foundation especially my husband. When I think of this new mountain I must climb. It will be the equivalent of my Mount Everest and I will be needing to draw on all of them once again and all of their strength and gather more supports for them. More in fact than I think they will ever be needing it than before.
So if you thought that what I told you above was indeed a lot of challenges to go through I would agree and say enough already! However what I didn’t know is I that was just beginning to climb my Everest ! Don’t get me wrong I wasn’t blind to this part of my life I just chose not to acknowledge it’s existence. My 50/50 lottery wins were always nil. So why did I think I would win this one? One word sums it up nicely HOPE !
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My Everest... 
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